Saturday, February 28, 2015

Refelection post

02/28/15

This is the last post for this assignment, I am to write a reflection on my experience over this writing.

When I first started this blog I hated it, I did  not like doing it and I did not see the point in it. But now that it has been three weeks. I have learned a lot about myself. I have learned that I need a place to vent and writing my feelings down is a good way for me to relax. A lot of my post are about me complaining, switch is not good to read but as the person writing it it helped me. I learned that I do my best free writing when I am mad, grated I do not stay on my subject but I get the words out and once I free my mind I can get to the task at hand. I will miss doing this assignment, although I think I will keep doing it. I need a way to clam down and relax and this is a great way to do it. I use to keep a journal but my husband started reading it and that upset me. So I used this blog has my journal and it has helped me remain clam when I normally would freak out and scream at my husband. I do not like that it is public but I think there is a way to make it private so it is not on the internet. At the beginning I struggled with opening up and letting my feelings out, I know I could have decided to do the blog differently but at the time I felt this was the best for me, and it has helped me. I do not feel as stressed before and I have somewhere to free my mind that my husband will not read. My success with this blog would being able to write about my feelings better and have a better understanding of free writing. I truly enjoyed this assignment. I do not know if my writing has changed but I know I am better at free writing. I think I still struggle with spelling and proper punctuation, and possible using the right words for what I am trying to say.

Tuesday, February 24, 2015

taking test

02/24/15

I had my first and second porter test today. I had one in math then one in my computer class. I did the math test first, and i think I failed it. I walked in the room told the lady the test I need to take and then I went to set down and I forgot everything. I think nervous got the best of me. Normally when I take a test it is in the classroom with the other students and the teacher. this is my first semester taking online classes and taking the test is a little different then if you were to take classes online.Then I took the second one switch turned out just to be a quiz, and I only missed two on that. So I am sure the different subject helped me, math is my worst subject. I just do not understand it, I look at the problem and my mind goes what the heck and I am lost. I wish I could do math but I can not.  I have tired and tired, I just can not understand it. I get the basic just not the algebra part. I know a lot of other people have this same problem. I think it is just how our brain is wired. But I have to pass this class even thoe I do not need it for what I am doing, I even have had a adviser tell me that I do not need this class but the degree calls for it so there for I have to have it.

At&T

02/23/15

Dear AT&T,

My husband called just to change his number to a tablet, that was all. It is suppose to be something simple and not hard to handle. But some how your employee messed it up. How, I would love to know and why you cant fix it, I would really love to know. I have called you know three times and even went to a store and you still can not explain to me why she added a line with out permission and you can not remove it, but you wont tell me why you cant. I tell you that I am not paying for it, and you say that is fine it will fall off in a month and no charges will accrue. So I will wait this month and see what happens, if your right okay, if your wrong I feel sorry because I will be even more up set then the first time I called. I know you have gave me money off my bill and I know you decreased my bill every month now, because of all of this, But that is not the point. The money is not the problem, the problem is your agent did something without permission on my account and I am very upset/ mad over it. This was something simple the lady even said this. I know you recorded this call and I don't understand why you cant listen to the call and then fix the problem, why do I have to wait 30 days for this to be fixed.

things are getting real

02/24/15

I started my morning with my sister texting me and telling me that I need to reinstall my Facebook so she do can my baby shower. She has set the date and everything, so I did and she created the even page. I am so nervous. My due date is in 12 weeks. So with in 12 weeks my son will be here and here I am trying to go to school and focus on that when something so scary and exciting is going on. At the same time my due date is the same week of my finals. so this should be interesting. I am starting to get stressed because his room is not at all ready. But at the same time I don't want to set it up to early. I think John is feeling the same why, he said last night that we needed to get his room together. I have so much on my mind, the things are everything with the baby, school, work, things with my husband. I just do not know when to take of work, what I should do about school and when i talk to my teachers and boss they all say wait and see what happens. That does not help at all. My mind is freaking out but I stay clam because at the end of the day the most important thing is my son. It is hard to think that our son will be here in 12 weeks. I am so scared and nervous. I do not know what to expect and I do not know what to think. I have so many mixed feelings. But I think it will be worth it when he gets here. I am so excited to meet him and to be able to hold him. The feelings I feel are confusing, I am so scared but so excited at the same time.

Saturday, February 21, 2015

learning a lesson

This is something that was hard for me to realize. ever since I have been pregnant I have not treated my husband the best. He also has not treated me the best. I made the decision the other day to stop letting things build up so when I talk to him I yell at him. I have been doing this for about a week now. Out fights have been a lot less. we had been fighting once a day  and it was not over anything important. He use to hurt my feelings by inviting his friends over all the time. There was one over every day and they wanted to spend the night. This made me mad because I wanted to spend time with him just the two of us before our son gets here, and the fact that his friends are from 23-30 and they wanted to spend the night at our apartment cripped me out. Then one asked if he could move in. I was like really what the heck is wrong with these people. But I talked to John about my feelings and I am going to express how I feel when I get up set when it first happens and let it stay bottled up inside. I had a dream that he was going to leave me and it made me wake up and realize that there are more important things to fight over.

Family essay edited



Misty Peak
English 101
Kelly Anthony
13 February 2015
                I am going to write about family and what family means to me. I have had a very close family for the majority of my life, up until a few months ago that is. Then my mother decided to leave my dad after 25 years of marriage all because she claims to be in love with a guy she dated at the age of fourteen. I have learned that family is not always blood related to you and sometimes the people that are blood related to you can hurt you the worst.
                My mother left my dad in September my husband (John) and I told her she could stay with us and she told us no. I understood that she then moved in with her brother and told all of that side of the family that she had no were to go and she was homeless. Mind you John and I had offered her place to live. So then I found out that I was pregnant and I told her, the response I got broke my heart and I don’t know how to get over it. She said well you screwed up your life and have fun living with your dad. My sister and father were both very supportive and have been. But my mother the person I thought would be happy for us told me that.
                After a few months of her calling I finally answered and told her, I told her that she had no right to talk to me that way and made more money than we do and she still asked to borrow money when she has a few bills. John and I have more bills and make less money and she still wants to borrow money. I told her she had no right calling me and I wanted an apology.
                This is the moment when I realized that family is not what I had thought it was. Also the people in your family do not have to be blood related to you. They can be your best friend, my family has changed over the past few months. My best friend is like a sister to me, between her my real sister, my father and John those are the people that got me through what happened with my mother.  I still talk to my mother just not near as much and honesty the only reason why I do is because my father asks me to.M y parents are not back together (even thoe my dad wants her back.) his because he me wants me to talk to her, the reason being he says he wants me to have no regrets if something happens, she is my mom and there for blood.
                My new found family is amazing and I would not change about them. The new family is my friends, my sister and her family, my dad and my husband and son on the way. Now family means to me anyone who can be there for you at any time just because they want to be and not because they have to be. So what is your outlook on family?

Cartoons

02/21/15

When I was a child I use to watch cartoons every Sunday. The cartoons I use to watch were lunny toons, scooby-doo, duck tales, goof troop. Now I still like those cartoons even thoe I am a adult, but I can not find them on television. I know time changes and what "back then" kids liked is not the same as what they like now. I look at the cartoons now and I don't see how like them, they are full of violence and things that are dumb (in my opinion) I do not understand why my nice needs to watch a show about kids being adopted or being sperated at birth. I mean my cousins use to watch power rangers, teenage mutant ninja turtles and chip and dale resource rangers, these cartons I can not find any where.

Thursday, February 19, 2015

on the new keyboard

02/19/15


My husband bought me a keyboard  and a case for my tablet. I am currenntly useing it.It is a lot harder to use then a normal keyboard. The keyboard works great but you can not type on it like a normal keyboard. It is much smaller, but I think if I get use to it then maybe it will be okay. The  case it came withis nice to have, not that the keyboard is not, it is but it is kind of hard to use. The last tablet I had I  broke by setting on it. It left a perfect imprssion ofmy butt check on  the glass. I know your probley asking how do you set on a tablet. Here is the storey.  We just got sadey and  I went to set down and she moved to the place  I was about to set. Instead of setting on her I moved over while I was setting down  and when Ianded  it was on the tablet. That is how I did it. But I am going to stop now. so until next time.

Tuesday, February 17, 2015

Sadey and the snow

I took Sadey outside with all the snow and she ran around outside for a minute then feel over. I walked over to her and picked her up. Then I went to work. A few hours later my husband took her out and her little legs locked up and she fell over, so he walked over and picked her up. then he called me at work and told me about this and I told him that she had down the same thing with me. So then he put out a puppy pad. She will not us it. So I took her out this morning and she peed, then was smelling around , then she looked at me and started to fall, I was close to her so I got to her before she fell, and now she has been sleeping next to ever since. I do not understand why her legs lock up with this cold. She will not let us put a collar on her or anything we try and she freaks out. The one time I decided to leave the collar on her and make her get use to it she has a score on the back of her neck about a inch long. So that went out the window. it is the same thing with a harness and anything you can put on her. John seems to think that people we got her from (they had kids) put things on her and it hurt her and she thinks it is going to hurt her. But she is great with kids, she wants them to play with her and if the baby next door is over and she starts to cry sadey will come get me and get my attention and then run to were the baby is. Like she is telling me she is crying. I could not be more happy that we got this dog. She is amazing and John and I both adore her.

sadey

02/16/15

My husband and I both use to have Yorkie s, His dogs name was Alex and mine was Coco. They both passed away about three months apart. We put Alex down because he was 17 years old, Blind, deaf, and starting to lose control of his bladder. Coco passed away after my husband had took her to the  vet. She had a heart problem that she had to be on a water pill for and I guess the pill stopped working. The vet told my husband that she had water build up all the way around her heart and in her lungs. He said he could try something and it might work, John (my husband) said okay. he tried and it didn't work.  But before we put Alex down my John was working at this house and this guy asked if we want this little dog. She was black and white and she was a Chihuahua, a mixed between long hair and short hair and a apple head. John at first said no and then I asked are you sure then he changed his mind. (this people were not the best of people.) They told us she cried all the time and they called her cry baby. So John and I took her home and she loved it, she was scared for like the first 5 minutes and cried then and it as almost been a year and we have not heard her cry since. She is a very special dog to John and myself.  She loves to love and be with us, She does not seem to have a favorite, she wants us both and she loves to lay on my stomach and feel the baby kick. 


Valentines day

02/15/15

I know I already said what my husband did for me for Valentines day. I just wanted to talk more about that day. Also the night before, On the night before we both had to work. He doped me off then went to work form there. While I was at work I learned the girl he just hired in September just up in quite. So now the other waitress who is in her 50s has her hours pulse the girl who quite hours. Switch the girl who quite only worked 12 hours so it not that much more. I just feel sorry for her that she has to work 40 plus hours, but it is only this way for a week maybe two. My boss does not give us breaks and will not pay her for the hours over 40 until she has a check that is not over 40. I know that is illegal but apparently he can get away with it. This is one reason why my husband does not like me working there. I know he could have gave me some of those hours but he says he does not want to put to much stress on me since I am almost 7 months pregnant. But it is fine with me because I work 35 hours now. That makes me tired. 

snowy day

02/16/15
Today I woke up and I do not feel good, I looked outside and we have snow. they say we are suppose to get more but with Missouri weather you can ever tell if they are right it seems. I also have to go to work today. It is days like this I wish I had a steady income, since I am a waitress and half my income is tips today is going to be bad. No one is going to want to get out and go out to eat in this weather. I do not blame them, I do not want to go to work. But I have to. If I do not go to work that puts us behind on paying bills. Even if I make no tips today the twelve hours of four dollars a hour affects my paycheck.
I know this is suppose be a certain amount of words but I do not know what else to say. So until next time. 

Friday, February 13, 2015

makeing life decisions

2/12/2015

In the next few weeks I have a big decision to make, it will affect my life forever. My husband and I are having a baby, he will be here in 14 weeks, and then after that I will be off work. This is when the decision comes in. My boss is willing to let me have the time off but will not give me all my hours back and wont even talk to me about the hours. He told me that he has to hire someone to cover and when i come back he can not just take hours away form them. So in a sense I am thinking he is trying to fire/ make me quite sense I have to have the time off. I looked up Missouri law on this and he has to follow the disability law. But sense he is such a small business I don't not if that means he has to do it.  But this is my decision I could wait and see what happens there or I could go get another job that is not in a restaurant, so my income would be stable and I would have insurance for my family. The only thing that worries me is I have with this job for almost 8 years and I love it most of the time.  But at the same time I think it is time for a change. I mean it is just a job, and there are several jobs out there. I have a good work history. I am 25 years old and I have had the same job for 8 years and it is a waitress job. So I do not think I would have a hard time finding work as long as I do not leave this job on bad terms. But I am not going to make up my mind yet. I am going to wait until after the baby is here. Right now there is nothing more important to me then this baby.

random post for english

2/13/2015

Today is Friday the thirteenth. If you believe the old wise tells today is going to be unlucky. They claim that your not to have a black cat, walk under a ladder and a few others that I do not know right now.   I on the other hand have always found this day to be lucky. I am not sure why but it has always been a lucky day for me. I only remember having one that was bad and I don't even remember what happened. I just remember crying and screaming and saying this is the worst day ever. But that was a few years ago. The day I do not like is April fools day, everyone goes around playing jokes and nothing is taken seriously. I just do not like that. I like jokes and things but a whole day were that is all you do is a little much for me. My husband always tries and gets a good one on me. One year when we were still dating he had came to the house where I lived with my parents. He had been trying to pull one over on my dad and my dad was not falling for it. So after a few hours John (my husband) left and was on his way home. Then we got a phone call from a number we did not know so my dad answered it and it was John he told my dad that he had hit a deer and needed help. John drove a car and was not going to put it in his car. So my dad and I got in the truck an headed up to were he was. On the way my dad looked at me ad said I hope this is not one of his jokes. we got there and there was no deer but you cold see where one had hit the car. The head light had some hair in it. Then across the window you could see the deer saliva. It was gross but i guess he had just stunned the deer. Switch I was happy because I don't like to see dead animals or anything.

Thursday, February 12, 2015

Another day

02/11/15

I woke up today extremely tired. I think this is all catching up with me now. Working 36 hours a week attending classes for school, ( I take 3) Being 6 months pregnant and trying to learn how to cook, so when my husband is at work I can make something myself. I am starting to think I need to stop doing something or at least cut back. It does not help that I have to get up like 3 times a night to pee. I also work two twelve hour days and only have one day off in between them. My schedule is work 12 hours off work 12 hours off then work 5 hours then work 7 hours then off then back to 12 hours. It is not a bad schedule I really like it, it is just getting hard. Not to mention school work in between, learning how to cook, spending time with my husband, and taking care of my dad. I feel like I am being pulled into a million different directions. The only thing I really want to do is my school work and it seems like every time I set down to do it something happens. I started my math homework this morning and I got frustrated because I don't know how to do and aleks is just confusing me more. This daily blog takes time and it helps get all my feelings out, I just feel sorry for the people who have to read it. A lot of it sounds like me complaining  and it partly is but I would not change anything I just wish I was not so tired all the time. I don't know what else to say, but I think I am going to go take a nap.

Tuesday, February 10, 2015

Husband surprise to me

2/10/2015

This happened yesterday while I was at work. My husband gets his paycheck comes into my work gives me the money he told me he would so we can save for our son. Then he tells me he is going to g shopping for me for valentines day. I said okay but do not blow the money on things we don't need spend it wisely. He said okay. So a few hours went by and he still had not came back and then around 2:30 he pulls in to the parking lot. He come in with this bag the says you + me= Awesome. Then he sets down at a table. At this point I only have to customers, so I walk over to him and he says Happy Valentines day I love you. I look into the bag and I see a card i pull out the card and I started reading it, then I started to cry because it was the sweetest thing I have ever read. Then I put the card on the table to go threw the bag. There is a stuffed dog that has boxers on, and a smaller little stuffed dog in a cup with hearts on it. there are four thing s of candy, and then at the bottom of the bag I see this cord and I pulled it up and it is some kind of charger so I pulled up the wrapping and I see a tablet on the bottom of the bag.  I was shocked and surprised, and i gave him a huge and told him I loved him. I feel bad now because the only thing I go him was a season pass to call of duty. But that is what he told me he wanted. But I didn't tell him I wanted any of the things he got me. I told him I wanted this bath tub for the baby.( he got that to)But that was the next day because he wanted to make sure it was the right one.

Work post

2/09/15

I have been working for this business for about 8 years. A few years ago he told the girls that if we got pregnant then we would be fired. I am now 6 months pregnant and he has not fired me but the only thing he will tell me is after I have the baby we will see what my hours are. He clams he has to hire a new person to replace me and depending on what she does is how I know I will get my hours back. But I have been doing a lot of thinking, I make a lot of money there for it being so small and kinda ran down It is so close to home and he is working with my hours with school ( Hinze why I have to do this blog) My husband does not like me working there for the following reasons, he will not pay over time, he does not give breaks, and when I work twelve hours a day I still get no breaks. I get to eat lunch but if someone comes in I have to take care of them. I am scared to leave this job because it is basically the only one I have ever had. But I am considering not going back to work for him, I am going to college for a accounting degree and I am thinking about apply at banks and trying to become a teller, or something like that. It would be a steady income, and after a few months I hopefully would get health insurance. I think it is time to put my big girl pants on and be the mom I am about to be.

Sunday, February 8, 2015

being told I had to Stay

02/07/2015

I went to work this morning at 9:30 like I was suppose to. Then about 4:00  thirty minutes till the time I get off work. The girl who is suppose to relieve me and says her house is on fire and she is not coming in. So I said okay and called our boss. He told me to call the other girl that works with us, so I did that and she was busy and could not come in. So I had no one to relieve me. So when my boss got there I told him that the other girl said she could not come in, his response was okay so what about you, I told him that I had plans and he told me that I had to stay. Mind you this he does not like me working 12 hour shifts because I am 6 months pregnant. I work two in my normal schedule and he don't like it. So I had to call my dad and let him know that we could not go to the store and I told him I would come over in the morning. Yesterday at work was okay except my bosses brother and I got into it. All over me asking him a question he started yelling at me. Then he screamed at me that it was not his good and told me to do it, I told him that it was not my job and I was not going to do it. This was the dumbest thing ever to fight about, but what made me mad was he started screaming and yelling at me. He even followed out to the dinning room yelling at me in front of the customers. So we told my boss and he fixed the problem. Makes my job harder but he wanted to get rid of the cart anyway he said. He is tried of the dishwashers not doing there job.

another daily entry

2/08/15 Another daily blog for English

So the plan today was to get up take my dad breakfast and then go to the grocery store so he can buy some food. But he did not want to do that. So instead we went to walmart, so I could do my baby register and we found out that they do it all online now so I did not have to drive to town to do it. It upset me because that was a wasted trip to Springfield.  Then my dad told that my grandma was in the hospital so we went to go see her. So it was not a complete waste of time. When we got to the hospital I got one of the mask since I am pregnant and there are a lot of germs there, when i walked into the room that my grandma was in, she said why are you wearing that and I told her because your sick and I don't want to get it. She was like o, like she didn't even realize she was sick. She seemed kind of out of it. Then her nurse came in and she just gave him this blank look like she had no clue what he was talking about. The only thing he said to her was he needed to check her blood sugar because that morning it was really low, I think my aunt said it was 54, after he checked it, it was 137. I don't know much about checking blood sugar or what it should be, but they said it was good. Then my dad was ready to leave, so we left. I then took my dad home. Then I went home, and now I think my car is acting up so I am going to have my husband look at the car.

Friday, February 6, 2015

02/06/1015

Another daily entry

Today I only have 5 homework assignment to finish. 4 of witch are due tonight. I have all of those done except for one and I am Waiting on the teacher to reply to my post blackboard. Math is not my strong subject. I am going for a accounting degree but I have to pass college algebra first. Switch I think is dumb because I was told by one of the advisers at school I would not use this in the field I chose to go into. I know I have to take this class because it is a requirement of the school. But I kinda feel like it is pointless. I understand taking English classes since that is the language I talk and I need a better understanding of it. When I need to write business letters they need to be professional looking and being able to understand what the letter says. Today I also looked up this high chair, they make this three in one and it grows with the child has they grow. I am going to have to ask my husband which one he thinks is best before I purchase one. There are two different ones that I like. One looks a little safer but the other one turns into a table and chair for a toddler, and it looks safe to. That is why I want my husbands opinion, he has been pretty laid back on buying things for the baby, and letting me have what ever I want for him.  My sister is still throwing the baby shower so I might just wait until after that to buy it, just to see if anyone else does. I only learned about it threw my aunt. She bought one for her grand kids and spent like 200 dollars on it. I found one that I like at Walmart for 72. A lot better if you ask me. The brand name does not matter to me, as long it is safe and serves a purpose I am happy with it. But I think my rant is over for the day, I will be back tomorrow.

Thursday, February 5, 2015

I believe essay per write

This is to per write for a essay that i don't completely understand.
This assignment we are suppose to use one of our thoughts from the earlier blog about free writing and I believe. Then we need to write 250 words on a credo for our distills unique on life .( I am lost now)
So here go I a hope I am doing this wirte.

I think family is the most important thing. They share the same DNA as you, you grow up with them, and they are always around you. Also in my family if you need them they are only a phone call away. I have a big family so of course I don't mean the whole family is the most important, The members in my family I feel are most important to me are my Husband ( I know we don't have the same DNA) but i chose him and he chose me to be part of our family. I then would pick my niece and nephew, I have three total nephews but only get to see one on a regular base. Then I would say my sister and my parents. Yes we fight and have or ups and downs, but something always brings us back together. My sister and I have the most DNA in common because well we are sisters. My husband and I are having a son so our DNA is mixed together in his little body. My niece and nephew of some of my DNA because of my sister. But I am called this is just a per-write because I have no clue what I am saying. But back to the subject, Families fight and I guess from my little rant I just proved to myself that family does not always have to share DNA. Switch I knew that. I treat my dog like my child and I consider her part of my family. My husband has friends that he likes and gets along better then his brothers. He once told me that his friends has been better brothers to him then his actual bothers. I don't know if it is different for sisters, I have always been close to mine. Although she is ten years older then me. She sometimes plays the mom role when I need her to, my mom is still alive and well we just don't have the best relationship right now. But that is family, they fight and after time they make up. But I called my sister the other night to ask her about my pregnancy and she did not miss a second on telling me what I needed to know. 

Knowing my audience from blackboard

This assignment is about knowing my audience.  Also know as the classmates in my online class.


I learned from the questions that we asked that most of us take the time to do our homework, also that we  might let other people start the assignments before we start ours, so we kind of have an example to look at when posting to blackboard. We have many different ages in our class and people who come from different places. It surprised me that only a few people had asked the same question, and not many people asked personal questions for example how did you meet your spouse, or do you have any kids. Most of the question were if you could go anywhere where would you go and why, and another one that got asked a couple of time where do you like Ananias?  I don't think anyone was thinking a chance on their questions. I know a couple of the students did like one student asked about politics and another asked about favorite sports teams. For the most part I feel like everyone was being shy in the questions. I asked if anyone had kids and some of the ones who responded did and wanted more later on and some of them did not have any and did not want to have kids because it would change their life and they liked there life as it is now. So some of the people in class are at different places in their lives than others. Some are wanting to start a family or already have a family and some are just wanting to be themselves and do their own thing. But a few things we all have in common we want a better education, to make our lives better, and we all thought it would be best to take this class online. Maybe it was for different reasons but we all ended up in the same class for a reason. We all chose to be here.